Neanderthals cannibalized their juveniles, our parents devour our hearts:
a love letter to my parents. Or an apology.

Oh Mother, carve out your heart with my bones
     and mend your soul with my dreams.

Your mind, sewn hastily with my umbilical cord,
      makes your hands mold me to be your magnum opus;

And I understand and I try.

And oh Mother, forgive me for I have sinned, but please,
     do not drown me in holy water; let me breath.

Kiss me again sometimes soon. And I hope your perfume
     is still the same.

Oh Father, each block placed by your hands, how long
     did it take to resemble something of a house?

How easily does it break when we cannibalize?

Do you not see my canines? They are there
     for a reason and I am a carnivore afterall.

I can't hold back from devouring and I am sorry,
     I truely am.

Oh Father, please, hold me to your chest one last time
     before my wings fly me too close to the sun.

You warn, always. But even so, the air bubbles
     between my joints always brusts,
it feels unpleasant otherwise.

Our mortal bodies dream vaster than the sky;
     the dreams to be to be immortal dying slowly
like the bulb in our kitchen, dimming it way
     to death but hanging on to dear life.

-Sai; 21/09/2023


Inspirations:

An article I haven't read.

Once,during a particularly hard time for us, my father said he could feel the castle he built crumble and he felt powerless for being unable to stop it.