Destroying Angels

The grave is a womb that teaches what love is.
I feasted upon my mother's blood and meat
     and the maggots and mud shall devour mine.
The mycelium shall be my umbilical cord;
     and the Destroying Angels shall not destroy an angel
          but the body of a cannibal.
The one who had to consume it's own mother's flesh to be born
     and soul to be just human enough.
I am but a goat in a farm, to be taken care of and loved
          only to be eaten;
The nature that fed me shall consume me back.
     But that's okay if that means I get closer
          to being a human.

Oh Regret! Tell me, why was I never human enough for you?
Oh Guilt! Let me be born and grow again.
Oh Saprophytes, consume this body of a monster
     and let the world know the poisons of this heart.
Maybe then, I shall deserve to be loved, once again.



-Sai; 22/02/2023(started 20/12/2022)

Inspirations:

Destroying Angels(Amanita virosa)
tumblr mushroom poll bracket 2022
probably just my seasonal (all seasons ever) depression